life and bullshits

WARNING : Emo Post.

cat fight between the mother
and daughter.

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"I don't care if you were to be killed,raped or anything..I won't even bother to search for you. I don't love you anymore, why should i care about you..i did not even want you in this world..so go to hell! fuck off! Don't ever come come back home!!!"

that was what the old woman said to me less than 1 hour ago.

it started off with lunch, nothing special.
it's very rare that i could actually talk to her like.. a normal mother and daughter conversation..

first few phrases were okay.

after asking her if i could stay over my girlfriend's place since im always rotting home alone plus i've had enough trouble @ home for 3 weeks when my cousin was visiting.

the old woman said no.

i asked why.
her reason : because i said so. got it!?!

again i asked if she could give me a proper reason so i could understand.

her answer was still no and that there is no reason.

well that sort of annoyed me and so i said "is it because you dont like her..or what..?"

the old woman : she is a stupid useless dumb cow. she use only! YOU WANT SOMEMORE??

that kept me quiet for a second or two, i still had no idea what she was on about and then said but you saw her before and said you liked them and hope to see them more..? so what's this shit?

the old woman : she makes me fat!

i kept quiet again and threw away the lunch she cooked.
lost my appetite. :s

and that's when it got worse.

i again asked for a proper reason. i did not understand why and what.
and if she does not give me a proper reason, then i might as well just go and have my fun. i dont want to stay home and rot. Plus i might be goin to langkawi/pangsor..so..isn't THAT much worse than staying over a friends house ?

"that's different"
then she threatens me with her fork..

"Im warning you..i will beat you up like you've never been beaten up before!!! i don't care if you die!
I don't care if you were to be killed,raped or anything..I won't even bother to search for you. I don't love you anymore, why should i care about you..i did not even want you in this world..so go to hell! fuck off! Don't ever come come back home!!!"

:S

triple dots. i stomped up to my room..and prepared to pack.
i was blank then..

again she barged in and said.."IM WARNING YOU" in that eery tone..and god her face..just like Mary Shaw..from err DEAD SILENCE..except blonde and a longer nose.

sigh.

and well the entire fight ended there with me in my room locked..and all emo-ish. =/

feeling slightly better now but im very sick of this.

Others would just run away or just go ahead to their friends plc..wtf am i doing here.
letting her win. :(

i dont have much choice but to wait til im 21.

this really sucks but i'll stay on the positive side.

fuck it.

tenkius and bye.