One of My Emo day(s)..?
Everything's gone upside down..so fudged up.
recently my parents have become more odd than usual. i odnt get them. i never do anyways. my dad is never home. my mom too. she works till 10pm. im always home alone. =/
my dad comes back around 3-5 am. drunk. smelly.
well. when i go out with friends or my bf..i always get in trouble. they'd just shoot me in the head iwth foul langue and threaten me (ntg too harsh)..i just hate staying home alone. plus i come back after college then go online. do osme blogging n all..then do my work. friends sometimes come over for a visit..EVEN THAT my mom has a problem with.
i do my work quietly..nicely..listening to music she ocmplain im lazy n yada yada i never help her blahblahblah i make her fat n ugly n i odnno what. god. she's just so urgh. i seriously wanna take a gun and just i donno. BANG! =/
as for my dad. he's a lil stupid at times. i mean. my mom she cant accept facts. facts like she's already 43..and growing older each day, she acts as if she's 19..or younger..even dress that way.
i odnt mind the dressing part. really.
i just mind that she's childish. it may be hard to picture this. but if ure in my shoes i donno..u'd probly be climbing up the wall..n just like jump off a cliff?!
. so back to my dad, he believe whatever she says. my mom i mean. of course he does..he's her husband..well ex hubby. my parents are seperated but still living under one roof. so yea she goes telling my dad shits about me like i wanna runaway from home iwth my friends and never return WHEN i tell her that me n my friends want to go for a holiday to P.D or smtg..and we even invited her to come iwth..but whats she say..? "oh no, i cant. im busy u guys go ahead." then the next morning i overheard her talkin to my dad..SWEET talking..telling him "ur daughter wants to runaway from home, what will u do now? i have no more time to look after her. u should take care of her now. her friends make me feel fat n they're using their 'magic' to cast some spell on me (etc etc).." sigh..='( its soo..depressing..so unpleasant.
Today was another helluva emo day. i went out last night. just to get out of theh ouse due to stress from college assigs n all. went out to chill then cinema. reached home bout 12 ish. then i got a badass Scolding from my dad. my mom just kep saying "serves u right" when i didnt do naything wrong. i dont have a curfew. my parents never gave me one before. and..god my mind's blank now..
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k back, and also, last time i had my bf sleep over. my dad didnt mind. my mom waso kay iwth it. until two months later she had the same thought tht he made her ugly n shit..(really. i odnno how~why!?)
but it didnt get so serious. i oculd stay out late til 4 or 5 am. but then now. its like..what the fuck..i cant even go out anymore..n have fun. they'd prefer me to stay home n rot in front of the com.
this is shit. well so far thats all i have to blab about. bed time.
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